THIS POST SUCKS
Boyfriend, New York, New York City, The Blog — By admin on 01/16/2012 8:27 am
I had to look up my password to this blog. I haven’t written for a while and I haven’t totally missed it. I’m back in school and there are so many things on my mind and sometimes I can’t get over the fact that the blog is called “Reluctantly Moving to LA” when I am no longer “moving to LA.” I already moved to LA. I lived in LA for 4 years and moved back to NYC and it makes no sense at all, but my whole life is up here and to start a new blog doesn’t feel right.
I want to write more often, but I write honestly and I’m scared of fucking up another relationship by writing private details here. I’ve forgotten how to write this blog and now everything feels too honest, too bare. And I now feel more private, more protective and maybe even more scared. I also sometimes hate the fact that people would check in with me on the blog.
I am now aware of unreal consequences. For instance, if I write about wanting to fuck a trainer at my gym now…well, I’m not gonna do it, but my boyfriend would feel bad. It’s hard to ignore that. Even if I’m kidding (kinda).
However, I feel that the so called “mission statement” of this blog is to be open. I think the biggest change in my life is that I am now an open in person in life…(UCK, this POST SUCKSSSSS!!!!) Okay, let me tell you what I’ve been thinking about: 1. Couples Therapy 2. Can sex last in long-term relationships? 3. ass-flab Wow, this was really deep. I think I needed to write a shitty post so I can break the shell and start writing some good shit.
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Jamie,
Happy New Year! (Late, I know.)
Your post was deep. And honest.
Didn’t suck.
Thank you, Damian!